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[sticky post] January 1st, 2015 (11:11 am)

hi! welcome.

if you're new here, know that i lock most of my posts for privacy reasons, so if you're not seeing much, that's why. comment or message me if you'd like to be added. =)

if you're from back when *i* was new here, i apologize for the things i did before i knew better. i hope i'm doing better now. ♥

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The road so far...

June 29th, 2016 (10:27 am)

current location: a super 8 in san diego
current mood: happy

Road tripCollapse )

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October 26th, 2015 (04:34 am)

current location: home
current mood: thoughtful

cat keeps walking all over and sitting on the laptop, yet when i put the laptop off to the side, he's completely uninterested in sitting on my lap or the laptop. =/


recently, i figured out i'm on the asexual spectrum. i'm 35 years old, and i can count the number of times i've been interested in having sex. i am attracted to people mostly based on personality, but it's very rarely a sexual attraction. it's more that i just want to be around them. i can appreciate people i find aesthetically pleasing, but i have no desire to take them to bed. as far as that goes, when i find someone aesthetically pleasing, it's almost always faces, not bodies. i don't really want to see people without their clothes on, and watching people making out on tv makes me uncomfortable. sometimes i wonder if most people even realize how often people make out or have sex on tv. it's a lot.

my favorite parts of romantic relationships are really just the parts where we spend time together, hanging out and watching tv or playing games, snuggling on the couch, holding hands, playing with each others' hair, that kind of thing.

i don't personally know anyone else like this. i know that they exist, or there wouldn't be terms like asexual and graysexual, but it feels kind of lonely sometimes.

one time, when i was 18, i spent the evening with a friend, a guy who was six or eight years my senior, i can't remember now. we ran some errands, and he made dinner while we hung out at his apartment. he kissed me, and i wasn't sure how i felt about it, so i kissed him back, because that's what you do when a boy kisses you. kissing led to making out, and i ended up with my back on the floor and my bra undone and his hands all over me. i could tell he was really into it, so i tried to be into it, to.

but then he stopped. and he said something like, "i'm sorry, but i'm having trouble figuring out if you're enjoying this or not. do you want to stop?"

i was a virgin, but i'd had similar sexual encounters before. and nothing like this had ever happened to me. all i could think of to say was "um," and just kind of blink at him blankly.

so he stopped. he was totally aroused, and i didn't say i wanted him to, but he stopped. looking back, it was the nicest anyone had ever been to me in that kind of a situation. but back then, i was mortified. completely and wholly embarrassed and ashamed. because it was my job, wasn't it? to make sure that the boy came away from the experience satisfied?

he made an effort to make sure i was okay and things didn't get weird, but i couldn't feel un-weird about it.

i think about it a lot.

i wonder about other young girls, graysexual or not, and how many of them end up doing things before they're ready because they've learned that the keeping a boy around is the top priority, and/or because the boy isn't observant or caring enough to figure out that she's not ready.

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so i did a thing

June 13th, 2014 (03:21 pm)

current location: home
current mood: chipper

i kind of podficced a teensy bit? i read relativity by dimity_blue. if anybody's in the sherlock fandom, it's a really fun, cute story.

anyway, even though i had some technical difficulties with the post itself that reni spent like two hours helping me through, i had a good time with it. i think i'll do more. =)

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book recs?

October 11th, 2013 (07:58 am)

current location: home
current mood: moody
current song: phantom of the opera by blink-182

this afternoon i need to go birthday shopping for a young girl just turning eleven. she has requested 'scary' books, so i thought i'd come to you guys and see if you have any advice on what to get for her. recs for not-scary books are probably okay, too.

anybody have any ideas?

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Mississippi Personhood Amendment

October 12th, 2011 (12:37 pm)
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current location: home
current mood: disappointed
current song: man in the mirror by michael jackson

Originally posted by gabrielleabelle at Mississippi Personhood Amendment

Okay, so I don't usually do this, but this is an issue near and dear to me and this is getting very little no attention in the mainstream media.

Mississippi is voting on November 8th on whether to pass Amendment 26, the "Personhood Amendment". This amendment would grant fertilized eggs and fetuses personhood status.

Putting aside the contentious issue of abortion, this would effectively outlaw birth control and criminalize women who have miscarriages. This is not a good thing.

Jackson Women's Health Organization is the only place women can get abortions in the entire state, and they are trying to launch a grassroots movement against this amendment. This doesn't just apply to Mississippi, though, as Personhood USA, the group that introduced this amendment, is trying to introduce identical amendments in all 50 states.

What's more, in Mississippi, this amendment is expected to pass. It even has Mississippi Democrats, including the Attorney General, Jim Hood, backing it.

The reason I'm posting this here is because I made a meager donation to the Jackson Women's Health Organization this morning, and I received a personal email back hours later - on a Sunday - thanking me and noting that I'm one of the first "outside" people to contribute.

So if you sometimes pass on political action because you figure that enough other people will do something to make a difference, make an exception on this one. My RSS reader is near silent on this amendment. I only found out about it through a feminist blog. The mainstream media is not reporting on it.

If there is ever a time to donate or send a letter in protest, this would be it.

What to do?

- Read up on it. Wake Up, Mississippi is the home of the grassroots effort to fight this amendment. Daily Kos also has a thorough story on it.

- If you can afford it, you can donate at the site's link.

- You can contact the Democratic National Committee to see why more of our representatives aren't speaking out against this.

- Like this Facebook page to help spread awareness.

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September 16th, 2011 (08:10 am)

current location: home
current mood: aggravated
current song: the way by fastball

Originally posted by darkspirited1at SIGNAL BOOST: SAY YES TO GAY YA

This comes from an article by rachelmanijaentitled, Say Yes to Gay YA.
(click the link for the full article)

Our novel Stranger has five viewpoint characters; one, Yuki Nakamura, is
gay and has a boyfriend. Yuki's romance, like the heterosexual ones in
the novel, involves nothing more explicit than kissing.

An agent from a major agency, one which represents a bestselling YA novel in the same genre as ours, called us.

The agent offered to sign us on the condition that we make the gay
character straight, or else remove his viewpoint and all references to
his sexual orientation.

This isn't about that specific agent; we'd gotten other rewrite requests before this one. Previous agents had also offered to take a second look if we did rewrites… including cutting the viewpoint of Yuki, the gay character.

It's time to stand up and demand change. Spread the word everywhere if you are just as angry and outraged by this.

doooo eeeeeeet.

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since tumblr isn't working the way i want it to...

August 31st, 2011 (03:06 am)

current location: home
current mood: sleepy
current song: hate (i really don't like you) by plain white t's

i'll just post the picture here. because it brings me joy, and joy must be shared.

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did you recognize everyone? =D?

ROW 1: Mad-Eye Moody; Rufus Scrimgeour; Argus Filch; Barty Crouch, Jr.
ROW 2: Remus Lupin; Petunia Dursley; Sybill Trelawney
ROW 3: Olympe Maxime; Kingsley Shacklebolt; Poppy Pomfrey; Severus Snape
ROW 4: Sirius Black; Bellatrix Lestrange; Arthur Weasley
ROW 5: Narcissa Malfoy; Quirinus Quirrell; Horace Slughorn; Garrick Ollivander
ROW 6: Lucius Malfoy; Filius Flitwick/Griphook; Molly Weasley
ROW 7: Minerva McGonagall; Lord Voldemort; Rubeus Hagrid
ROW 8: Vernon Dursley; Cornelius Fudge; Nymphadora Tonks; Igor Karkaroff
ROW 9: Rita Skeeter; Peter Pettigrew; Rolanda Hooch
ROW 10: Gilderoy Lockhart; Dolores Umbridge; Albus Dumbledore
ROW 11: Fenrir Greyback; Barty Crouch; Xenophilius Lovegood; Pomona Sprout

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go forth and spread the love!

August 13th, 2011 (10:26 am)
current location: home
current mood: busy
current song: strangers like me by phil collins

i don't actually have time to do this today (or at least right now), but i feel like it's a worthwhile endeavor for anyone who does.


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unfollowing amnesty!

March 20th, 2011 (11:04 am)
current location: home
current mood: productive
current song: if we hold on together by diana ross - no, i'm not kidding

i'm going to take a page out of maple_mahogany's book, here, and do that unfollowing poll-thingy. There are people on my flist I never talk to anymore, and vice versa, and there's really no reason to be taking up space on each others' friends pages.

a lot of what i post from here on out is going to be friends-locked, and i want to make sure the people who see my entries are here because they still want to be here, and not because they feel obligated or because they don't want to be rude.

i know a lot of us no longer have anything in common, and that's okay. natural order of things, blah blah blah. i want to make it clear, though, that i will never have hard feelings if you want to unfollow me in the future, okay? it doesn't have to be a now-and-only-now thing. <3

nobody will see the results.

Poll #1720021 Follow/Unfollow Poll

Sticking around or leaving?

Sticking! You can't get rid of me that easily.
Leaving. And feel free to unfollow me, too, no hard feelings.
Don't kick me out! I'm a harmless lurker.
I don't care either way.

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hug icons

March 19th, 2011 (02:04 pm)

current location: home
current mood: lazy
current song: bulletproof heart by my chemical romance

i really needed a good hugging icon, so i went looking for images. i still don't have exactly what i'm looking for (a serious band boy hug), but i made a few anyway, and figured i'd share them, in case anyone wanted one.

also, i know there is a photo out there of gerard way wearing a sign that says 'free hugs'. does anyone have that? i couldn't find it.

cut for hugging.Collapse )

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just a heads-up

March 13th, 2011 (12:28 am)

current mood: thoughtful

i've been thinking about it a lot, guys, and i'm going to make the majority of my journal friends-only. i can't really risk losing my job over the things that go on here.

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Spirit Day

October 3rd, 2010 (10:42 am)

current location: home
current mood: nauseated

Originally posted by neo_prodigy at Spirit Day


It’s been decided. On October 20th, 2010, we will wear purple in honor of the 6 gay boys who committed suicide in recent weeks/months due to homophobic abuse in their homes at at their schools. Purple represents Spirit on the LGBTQ flag and that’s exactly what we’d like all of you to have with you: spirit. Please know that times will get better and that you will meet people who will love you and respect you for who you are, no matter your sexuality. Please wear purple on October 20th. Tell your friends, family, co-workers, neighbors and schools.

RIP Tyler Clementi, Seth Walsh (top)
RIP Justin Aaberg, Raymond Chase (middle)
RIP Asher Brown and Billy Lucas. (bottom)

REBLOG to spread a message of love, unity and peace.

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every 3 minutes, a child is abducted

September 9th, 2010 (11:43 pm)

current location: home
current mood: determined

in the united states.Collapse )

you could make all the difference in recovering a missing or abducted child.

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July 9th, 2010 (12:45 am)

current location: home
current mood: nervous

Title: Ficlet 1: Mikeyway
Rating: Lots of swearing, no porn.
Fandom: Bandom/Pern Crossover
Pairing: None. Yet.
Words: 1,879
Disclaimer: Not even a little bit real. Dammit.
Summary: It's Journeyman Healer Mikey's first day at Benden Weyr.
Warnings: More cheese than these guys could ever truly be capable of on their own.
Notes: My first bandom story! (Kind of.) This is probably the Pern 'verse I will always write in, and right now I'm not sure what to call it without being spoilery, so for now it'll just be my 'verse. It turns out I suck pretty hard at posting actual fic, and since I have this whole huge 'verse in my head, I'm just going to post little ficlets in it. Also, you should know that there is a whole lot of handwaving going on all over this thing. Shhh, don't tell.

Thanks to reni_days  for the beta and constant hand-holding, and to miss_diverse  for the read-through. =)

So here's the first one. =D?Collapse )

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